Thursday, September 15, 2011

Looking for the Positive

I usually tuck the positive beneath my pillow at night knowing that I will look for it in the morning when I am still groggy and loving the warm nest I've slept in during the sleeping hours. I pull it on and head into the day.

This morning I took out the positive attitude. Everything seemed okay until I was up about an hour then I started feeling lousy. The attitude still sat lively, but the body was feeling less than perfect. Sometimes a positive attitude isn't enough.

This getting older seems difficult some days. I keep looking for that youthful, 50ish, energy to reappear, but it often goes into hiding. And, it returns with a bit of it missing. My love of late hours find my late hours appearing earlier. At the end of the day, my hands hurt beyond use and I am sad. I am discouraged.

I'm not complaining.....well, maybe a little. I want to have that energy back to go with the wisdom I've discovered as I've aged. I want hands that can type and not ache. I want energy to keep up with my grandchildren. But it isn't always there, is it?

I'm feeling a little under the weather. It won't slow me down. I'll keep up the pace, keep up the writing until the hands refuse to continue. I will keep the positive attitude I took from beneath my pillow this morning and cherish it, use it. Some days just are more difficult than other, but I celebrate what I have and what I can do with what I have. I celebrate that a smile is much easier than a frown. I embrace each day being thankful for what I have in my life.

Perhaps today is a lounging day. A day to slow down and pamper myself. We all have those days. Today is mine.

1 comment:

  1. It sounds as if you did need a pampered day. I hope you enjoyed it!