Monday, December 10, 2012

Finding the Spirit

What a mixed bag!!! I go from being pumped now that the holidays are here then crashing to a quick low that takes me a bit to understand. It's all about finding the spirit. Sometimes I think I find the spirit among the spirits.

December is a very difficult time for me. My mother passed on December 14. My daughter and I had our falling out the beginning of last December. We lost a good friend on New Year's Eve. December is a wonderful, horrible time.

"Sometimes I just want to cry," I told my friend.

"You know I feel the same. I just miss everyone,"she replied.

I know we are not alone in this feeling. We all have memories that take us back to a time when family was together celebrating. Many have children and grandchildren living away from them. We raise our children to have wings then sort of wish we could clip them and bring them home once more. Tis the season.

I put energy into this celebrating the holidays. I work hard at keeping the sadness and loss at bay. I work on myself trying to improve on last year's model. Even if I feel the blues coming my way, I'm learning to replace the sad with something new. I have wonderful memories to draw on and beautiful grandchildren to love and adore. The scent of evergreen. Bright packages under the tree. Watching the tree lights and remembering. There is so much good to chase away the sad.

I think the spirits of my family members now gone help me to find the Christmas spirit for it does lie within the human heart and is ours to share maybe even after we are gone and in what we leave behind.

I hope you will all look at my care list and keep these people in your thoughts. For many this is a time of terrible loss and pain. We do indeed share this world with one another. I love the words of No Man is an Island which I learned long ago.

No man is an island
No man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me
Each man's grief is my own
We need one another
So I will defend
Each man as my brother
Each man as my friend.

Finding the spirit........

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