Monday, June 20, 2011

Back Space, Back Space, Back Space

Contractions. Those n't words that we use every day.

Auxiliary verbs: Could, Would, Should

Auxiliary: Giving assistance, help, support.

This morning I found myself writing a message on Facebook to a friend. I started to write the word couldn't then stopped, erased and wrote could. It dawned on me how often over my years as a mother and a grandmother, even as a friend and a sister, that I have used these n't contractions. Negative contractions. Bad, Pam. Bad, bad, bad.

As a teenager, I remember that every time my parents said no, I rebelled. Even as an adult I feel that rebellious niggle. When I used that same word, my children became defensive....they still do. No, not, negative words create negative thoughts. I knew this, still I used these contractions.

I've tried to be a positive woman. I work to find new ways of communication. I'm a believer that positive begets positive, yet I still use those negative auxiliary verbs. It's time for change. Time to rewrite the pages I have ahead of me. Time to work a little harder at becoming a positive force.

I wrote, "I'm sorry I couldn't be there." Back space, back space, back space. "I wish I could have been there."

Small steps. Tiny steps. Back space, back space, back space.

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