2012. The number strikes fear in the hearts of many. Imagine me saying it with mock fear in my voice. 2012. Maybe a little bit of Orson Welles.
I guess when you have lived long enough nothing scares you. Our world was supposed to come to an end several times during my 63 years. I'm still here so I guess it didn't happen. My son and I were talking about the hype about the Mayan calendar. He informed me of the basis of the expected doom. I inform him that probably the Mayan's, were they still around, would just need to go buy a new calendar. Maybe one with puppies on it.
We all know that we aren't here forever. I certainly don't sit around worrying about it. We only have today. And, I'm fine with the fact. For if I only have today, I will make the best of it.
Tomorrow Oregon will have their largest earthquake drill ever. Schools, businesses and homeowner are to initiate a practice drill. A 9.0 quake is expected at any time. We are informed that it is long overdue. So some time tomorrow I will drop and roll. I guess if I'm with the puppy, she will go with me. The ocean plates are shifting, and we will shift with them when it happens. Am I worried? No. Again, I live for today.
I feel sorry for those people who live in fear of the unknown, fear of the past and fear of change. Most of my life I think I was afraid of the mistakes I'd made in my life, of job loss, of raising a family, of a big mountain called St. Helens that lives nearby. I cannot hide from the past, let alone, the earth. I cannot change many things in the present. And, if St. Helens or Mt. Hood decides to blow, I will sit in my house and listen to the ash fall on the roof. I cannot change many things, but I can change me. I refuse to be afraid.
Years ago I would not have tolerated being near a snake. Yet, after a long talk with myself, I touched a snake at the science fair and encouraged my granddaughters to do the same. I have spent nights worrying, afraid of decisions I made or had to make, afraid of loss, afraid of myself. Well, I'm not afraid any more. I might stumble and fall over my own mistakes, but it will not destroy me. A hurricane might pass through my life, but I have felt the sting and will survive. I have today and embrace it with all I am.
2012 will come no matter what I do, how much preparation I could be. Also in 2012, I will be 65. I will hopefully have another grandchild added to the pack. Hopefully, I will have a book on the shelves of every bookstore in America. Best of all, I will have a positive attitude.
Bring it on.